I'm just realising that when I make time to meet friends, I always try to meet as many as possible, not all together but one after another.

Work although I love it, takes up too much of my time and I'm just generally too tired and too grumpy to socialise after.

I've always been rather anti-social, I am getting better, just very slightly.

Mostly I'm still only meeting people within my comfort zone but I am trying to broaden my horizons.

I really don't know what my problem is. I'm generally secure and confident enough but crowds of people just bother me. Wait..not exactly either.

Like, if I were to attend a formal function with say, judges, senior counsels and such, I'll be fine. In fact, I would probably enjoy it to a certain extent.

But ask me to go mingle with a room of my peers and BAM! I'm gone.

Friends are okay and when I say friends, I mean true blue friends.
Crowds of them are tolerable. Not ideal, tolerable.
I don't really like meeting friends one on one unless we're THAT TIGHT and I less than a handful of such wonderful beings.
I like meeting friends in teeny-tiny groups. Anything more than 5 bores me.

Acquaintances fill me with dread
and Strangers fill me with nothing so much as fear.

So here we are now
A sip of wine a sip of water
Someday maybe, maybe
Someday we'll be smarter

If you don't don't know
Why would you say so?
Would you mean that please
If it happens?