Just watched the music vid for the first time and it's very, very sweet.

It's strange how I'm listening to it with a sort of resignation.

I guess I am resigned, very healthily so.

I can't lose something I never had, so let's just keep it that way.

Suddenly I'm so so thankful for this 2 month break.

So many thoughts, one fixation, no distraction.

I hate having moments like this when I want to write about a million little things which are just too personal to publish on cyberspace.

My Kakak's gone back for hols so the house is currently maidless. I hope this won't stress Mom out too much.

I had just walked out of my room this morning when I realised, and I walked back in to make my bed. I have not folded my duvet in a stupidly spoilt amount of years.

Tears and fears, feels just like home.

On the bright side, I'm going white water rafting this weekend!
Dad's none too pleased. He went a couple of years back when he had to save one of his colleagues.
It doesn't help that some children died when the bridge collapsed and 3 UTAR students drowned at some waterfalls as well.

On a totally different and totally inappropriate matter, I need to stop obsessing! Rawrrr

As Jess calls it.
Because it's Just My Luck.

Back in good old Melaka.
I love being back here but it kinda bums me out that I have to return just as I'm finding my place in sunny Kay El.

I honestly can't wait to be back, in sunny Kay El I mean.

I'm just trying to clear my mind, and focus.
And not think of things which are too far away and unlikely.

Why are boys asking me along on a boys' night out?
I think I'm becoming one of the boys. Strange.

5am. Had a pretty good albeit slightly stressful and very question-filled night.

How many nights have you come across that you wished they would never end?

I can't pinpoint any, I'm sure I have had them before, just probably not one for a very, very long time.

Spent a lot of the night smiling.
Sometimes unconsciously and weirdly enough, sometimes consciously.

Two months till I'm back in sunny Kay El.
Two months till I'm all grown up and responsible.

The last two week break worked wonders.
This is to hoping the next unwanted but much needed two months will do the same, if not more.

by Chris Brown.

Pretty good day considering.

I honestly think my boss has the patience of a saint.

Witnesses, especially untruthful ones, are such a Pain.

Had a pretty good lunch with the swanky lawyers.

My last week in KS and L decides to give me my first not so swanky assignment, fifteen minutes before I'm due to meet a friend for dinner as well! But I think that although L is all macho and cool, he's really a marshmallow so :)

I'm in such a good mood and really looking forward to tomorrow although I'm dreading this week to come to its end.

I'm gonna miss working here So So So So Much.

Met Shah for dinner and he's such brilliant company.
They just don't make them like that anymore.

I can't can't can't believe I won't be seeing everyone till January.
It breaks my heart.

It's Tuesday and that was the first song that came to mind.

Had a pretty interesting day.
Very different from yesterday.

Yesterday I was utterly and completely fascinated by you.
I was uninspired and bored and distracted and I could not work.

Today, much to my relief, I am back to normal, bored and uninspired, by everything and everyone.

Tomorrow will be a new day and I wonder just what it might hold.

You, perhaps.

Being sociable, anyway.

Hung out by the pool with Shah for a bit who came by to play Badminton with some lawyers from his firm. New neighbour! (for selected weekends anyway)

Had to go to the library and return MissAfiah's book on her behalf (which was 6 months overdue) because she was indecently dressed and was told she could not go across the lobby to do it.
You're NOT a government office, you're a community centre.
LIGHTEN up, seriously.

Meatball plan was cancelled because IKEA was just too packed and I had totally forgotten MissAfiah turned vegetarian approximately three weeks ago.
So we ended up going to this vegetarian place in the Curve. It wasn't too bad for healthy food.

Then decided to send my car for a wash while MissAfiah and I had limau ais at the mamak just a minute away. Sure beats walking to and fro Villa Flora on my own.

Meeting Gerry for Thai. I LOVE THAI FOOD.

Still not sure who to watch Inglourious Basterds with.

Or should I just go out tonight?

Only managed to sleep at 5 and woke up at half 9. Seriously about about the lack of sleep. THANK YOU FANTASTIC BODY CLOCK.

I sound like a broken record. This is the third time I'm saying it, first twitter, facebook then now here.

Miki texted me. I CAN'T BELIEVE she made a last minute decision to come back. I would have gone back to Melaka if I knew.

"I almost killed Zeus:(. I was bathing the dogs. They all escaped into the garden. I put 3 in the house. 4 back. Then I noticed Zeus was missing. He fell into the pond:("

Okay, it wouldn't have been funny if Zeus had drowned but since he didn't, it's pretty hilarious.

I remember Smuggles jumping into the pond intentionally once and swam like 5 laps around it before he allowed Miki to get him out.
We were all very amused that she wanted to swim so we put her in the jacuzzi but she panicked so we had to take her out. Strange pup.

Plans for today.

Watch boys from last night play badminton. Coincidentally they're playing in my place so.

Meatballs from IKEA and shopping with MissAfiah.

Inglourious Basterds tonight with anyone who wants to catch it with me.

I LOVE QUENTIN TARANTINO. Stylised violence at its best.
Not really a fan of Uma Thurman but Kill Bill 1 was nothing short of brilliance!

Please please pretty please!

Not justified but reasonably explained, annoyingly so.

I enjoy conversing with people who are so apt with anthropology, mostly.

Went for the Lincolns Inn Alumni social today. It was surprisingly enjoyable. Saw some familiar faces. Met a number of people I actually enjoyed conversing with and wouldn't mind seeing again.

It's 4.28. I should really be asleep.
I'm gonna be all alone tomorrow, in the condo I mean. Everyone has/ will be in Melaka for the weekend.
I've never lived alone before. It's kinda scary but I'm sure I'll survive.

Just caught the latest episode of Criminal Minds. Aaron Hotchner really reminds me of Mr. Ram. Brilliant and subtle.

i need to sleep i need to sleep i need to sleep

I hate sleeping alone.

Is it really that elusive?

I think I've reached a point where I'm not even looking for love anymore.

I've lost faith in the boy I think I love.
I'm getting very tired of the boy I care about.
And I'm so so fascinated by a boy I feel nothing for.

He never criticizes, is never negative.
He is always patient.
And yet I am very slightly afraid, always very very careful.

She says he never laughs or cries.
And yet today, in a span of 5 minutes, he laughed twice.

I hope my smile can distract you.